'Cause i used to think i know everything

dependsonfate @ 2009-12-20T02:00:00

2009-12-19T18:00:29Z

just a quick one.
hav a christmas celebration on friday at office. was really exhausted after playing the games and performing. yup performing, so embarrassing like duno what. i had never done such crazy things before. omg lar. stayed in office till ard 8plus to finish the work and cabbed down to 313. i swear i really feel damm tired for that day. 12 hours at office. cui ttm. nevertheless, i had fun.

i just finished doing some work. yeap, i hate it when i have to do work after working hours & during weekends. i told myself not to worry and think about work, but i have no choice. really, no choice. that's my life now.

but 8 more weeks, let's hang on! off to bed now. :)

if this is what you choose then don't complain

2009-12-17T14:23:14Z

yay i'm on tumblr!
follow me! ^^

work is like stressing me out, i'm like going to be crazy anytime.
basically i'm like doing almost everything.
i did admin, customer service, finance, marketing and she says she going to let me do sales soon.
wow wow wow. the only thing i nv do is editorial tasks, haha!
such a beneficial internship.

so tired. nights.

disgusting bald tiko uncle

2009-12-15T14:26:32Z

this afternoon, this guy colleague play a lame trick that scared me.
it's just a stupid thing that when u put in between a stack of book or papers then when you flip, that thing will be like a 'fly' that fly out.
yea i saw that thing already and i know it's really lame.
but it's a natural reaction that when u open/flip something and there's a thing that fly out, of course you will be chua tio right?
like please, i beg you this uncle will too.
so yeap, he pass me a book and ask me to read. so i flip and this thing fly out.
and he laughed. at that point of time, i was really pissed. i really feel like asking him to fuck off.
since the start of the internship, i am already damm disgusted by him, the way he speaks, the way he see people, the way he do things, damm suck up to the boss also. so damm disgusted.

the most happy thing about end of internship is not because i don't need to work anymore, i think it will be not going to see you and tolerate your nonsense. irritating freak. at the age of 30 but looks like 40+. poor bald tiko uncle.
fancy asking me to go over when you just want to add in a word into the email. like please, can't you say it through ym? wth.
fyi, he is like that to girls esp like me n my friend. bastard lar.
damm pissed and irritated!!
GET OUT OF M Y SIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Most times, it's just a lot easier not to let the world know what's wrong

2009-12-12T18:37:06Z

picture credits to runawaytrain (:

more happy days please, santa clause? hahaha
**
zombieland just now. haha.
not recommended. didnt realise it was M18 till we entered the theatre. lols!

saw the 2 carat diamond ring on my colleague's finger.
like OMG?! big lar. such a lucky girl.
and that is only her birthday present! can you imagine how big will the proposal/wedding ring be? haha.
she is 25, he is 21.
so age doesn't matters afterall as long as both of them love each other. do you agree? lols.
hmm, to me, agree to an extent, it depends afterall.

shan't think and worry about work when i am not supposed to, like many had told me.
but still arghhh. stupid work. LOL

2 more weeks to christmas.
3 more weeks to 2010.
5 more weeks to jb's bday.
6 more weeks to serene's bday.
9 more weeks to end of attachment.

you know, i really hope 2010 will be a good one.
though it dont start off very well cause of attachment, but i do have a feeling it will be another wonderful year. (:
will like to do a post about 2009 soon! quite a good year except for this internship. ha!
off to sleep! 9 more weeks! till then! :)

Sometimes I wish I could fast forward time just to see if it will all be worth it in the end

2009-12-11T14:43:03Z

I think the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because..
memories are the only things that don’t change when everything else does.

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2009-12-10T12:56:21Z

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it's okay

2009-12-07T14:52:43Z

It’s okay. It’s okay to want someone you can’t have. It’s okay to want something more. It’s okay to cry when you’re hurt, and it’s okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you. Believe it or not, it’s always going to be okay. That’s just how it works. Sometimes things don’t work out how you want them to, and most of the time, it seems like they never will. But eventually, everything is going to iron out some way or another. You just have to believe, keep your faith, and move on.
-runawaytrain

i felt so motivated/encouraging whenever i read what she written. every word every sentence she said, i can't agree more.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop

2009-12-06T13:12:45Z

another fun-filled friday night.
two days of mc for that week doesnt give me enough rest yet. haha
celebrated cgoh's bday on friday, bbq @ ryan's house.
worked till 7pm and rushed down. bought mini muffins for them.
and funny that i dun believe wad nette had msg me =x sorry nette, i will believe u next time.
will surely buy muffins for u guys again next time when we meet! good things are meant to be shared! (:
eat n chitchat n sharing of jokes till late. drank volka, i wish i can drink more but my gastric aint really well.
cabbed home at 3plus with jb cause i can't take it alr.

then saturday was shopping plus new moon with wendy+xiaoru.
but i was so tired that i overslept and took a long time to prepare. hahaha
din manage to shop much and i have a bad stomach.
probably due to the night before and the chilli of the wantoon mee we ate earlier on.
new moon was okay. i still think edward's father is more charming. ha!

work tmr again. how boring is that.
i still have some work to complete. seriously, 30% isnt that much ah?haha
nevertheless 10 weeks more! going to go crazy by keep thinking of feb12!
can't stop thinking! omg. how good will it be if feb12 is tmr right!!
okay off to do some work. zzz. till then!

Sometimes the hardest things to say are the things that really matter

2009-11-28T06:33:00Z

sweet (:

i spent the whole 'morning' and wrote only 600+ words. haha
pro me. i slept at 5am and woke up at 12pm.
i still thought i will wake up at 2 or what but seems that my body clock has adjusted to sleep for 7hours everyday only. lols!

so i think i am going to die alr cause i have like 2000+ of words to go.
finally watched 2012 and needless to say, it was good. was so tense throughout the movie. ha!
am so excited cause i found good camera deals! if nothing is wrong, hopefully i can get the camera before genting+kl trip! woo!

and i receive a kinder bruneo from my angel! so sweet lar!
yea my company played angel and mortal for christmas. the first week theme was sweet.
next week will be crazy. hahaha. duno what to buy!

okay i think i should go and continue my report. argh!
till then!

ignorance is bliss

2009-11-21T18:23:47Z

just one. last friday at tampopo for dinner and mini bday celebration for wendy.
and yea afterwhich was that mahjong. haha.

was so busy and i can't stop thinking about work even though it's weekend now!
sigh. so i think the sentences (right at the end) suit me. i should not think anymore!
so many things in my mind. omg. no wonder sometimes i cant sleep. and woke up with a bad headache. bad.
and interim report is due soon, i have not started much yet. 3000 words. bless me.

am going for a short getaway next month. laughed so much while booking the trip.
i think the staff there must be thinking we are like so sua ku. asking stupid questions. hahahaha.
nevertheless, i haven't really feel the excitement yet cause of the work stuffs in my mind.
but definitely, i'm looking forward to the trip! :D
something to look forward to. yay!

watched christmas carol afterwhich.
no comments. at a point of time i feel like sleeping, at another point of time, i was wondering if the show is NC16 but it's not.
cause i was frightened for at least 2 times. it's not scary but the thing just pop out. omg lor. lame. i wonder if those children watching are okay. hahas. but the ending was alright. heartwarming.

hopefully i could watch 2012 tmr!
okay maybe i should go and type a few sentences and go to sleep.
and am glad to say, 12 weeks more! ^^ till then!

"Sometimes, all you can do is not think. Not wonder. Not obssess. Not imagine. Just breathe. Breathe in. Breathe out. Everything works out in the end. And the more you worry about it, the longer it’s going to take for things to end perfectly. Just the way they should."

dependsonfate @ 2009-11-19T16:14:00

2009-11-19T08:14:16Z

"The first time your heart gets broken is the worst.
Not because it ever gets any easier,

but because you have learnt to expect disappointment."

相遇，不是用来生气的

2009-11-14T15:36:49Z

hi people, another week has passed. weekend is here again.
overnight mahjong ytd after like 2months? hahaha.
wah really cannot take it, i think i'm old liao. super tired.

so last sunday was celebrating van's birthday!
morning was vienna at united sq with aunty n sis, my sis's fren treat. thanks!!
then was going down to j8 to meet them and buying of presents.
surprise @ her house and chit chatting den finally settle down at aijisen.
swensens for icecream after that. full day. hahahaha.
and we all have fun taking 'clubbing' photos.

i like this one ^^

jbjb (:

shall upload somemore next time. ha!

some pictures from last friday chompchomp!
there is this restaurant call 'sakura' at compasspoint, sengkang.
not the japanese restaurant but a thai restaurant. their food is omg super nice.
go try their meegoreng, fried cuttlefish(sotong), sambal kangkong, lala, almost everything we eat there, it's super good.
you wont regret!

the dessert shop has this small display which is super cute and nice, omg i like!

the title of this post, is an email i received from hottie.
it says something like,
當你和朋友..家人爭執時…
要記得你們的相遇…
不是用來生氣的喔…
haha so don't vent anger on others whenever u like!
anyway, 13 weeks more!
the interim report is such a headache. arghhhh.
till then people!!!!!!!!

almost perfect

2009-11-08T16:27:08Z

i enjoyed my sunday.
if only, there is no work tmr, it's perfect.
i have a god damm long list of things to do.
i will tell myself to be happy.
yea i will cause i have so many nice & sweet friends that asked me to.
you all are the one that keep me going, not forgetting my family. (:
i will hang on, endure till the end cause i must.
will upload photos soon, lots of 'clubbing' photos. LOL

and my beloved, i'm happy for you. love you. (:

it doesn't matter. who is without a flaw?

2009-11-07T17:54:21Z

i totally need this sentence.
people do make mistakes, don't tell me you don't? i think you wont die by giving another chance right?
i am totally busy till i am going crazy. so many things happen within a week. sigh.
now i have so many things in my mind that constantly remind me that, 'oh! i have to do this and that on monday.'
great. i just did finish some work stuff too. yea doing work on weekend. haha.

anyway, i did enjoy my week. because thurs was michaeljackson with lily. nicee.
friday was chompchomp with the great bunch of people.
satisfy my cravings man. all spicy food, oh god. haha.
stingray,sotong,kangkong,lala,satay. sugarcane drink. awesome.
dessert,mango pomelo after that. a wonderful friday night. lols.

tmr will be great too. update on that later. (:

sometimes, some things are easier said than done.
you say of course easy lar, but did you ever try doing what you say? haha.
okay it's late. tmr gona be another long but fun day. nights! :D
14 weeks left!

endure is the magic word

2009-11-02T15:23:38Z

seriously very bad. :( sigh.
everything is so so .....
ENDURE!
walao i duno why the freaking mosquitoes choose my toes to suck blood.
so damm itchy and uncomfortable.
okay the stress level is so high now. i'm going crazy.
but there is something for me to look forward at least. and i really hope i can finish my work by thursday.
if not, good luck to me. ha!
thurs, fri, sat, sun. :D
way to gooo. and slowly, the number of weeks left will be 10, 5, 1 and tada! i'm done with the worst part of my life.
hehe.you see, i'm trying to be optimistic and happy.
k, i'm so tired. nights!

刺猬

2009-11-01T13:55:15Z

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无声黑暗
心痛的大声呼喊

我想我没那么坚强
每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象吧

it's a four letter word with alot of meaning

2009-10-30T18:09:25Z

Love
**
weekend is here again! can sleep more!
dont wish to talk about work, nothing good to talk about.
i just pray that we dont kena any scoldings or what, pray that everything is alright. it will be!
so anyway, caught the blue mansion and sister's keeper.
one is funny, one is sad. hahahaha. both are nice! :))
it's raining now! such a nice weather to sleeep.
k till then! 15 weeks left!
by the end of the 15 weeks, i will be a happy girl again. :D
and oh ya i found out that i have so many cuts on my hands, at least 4, i think by either penknifes or paper.
zzz lor, cause when i wash hand then i will feel the pain and i have to observe my hands and find where are those cuts.
shld be from the moving of office. -.- and today i found 2 more cuts on my left knee. like wth? i think is from all those kneeling down to test the keys. i'm so poor thing. lols!
okay lar, have a good sleep people! nights!

everyday i hope my life isnt like this

2009-10-25T13:06:36Z

somehow worked for more than 12 hours ytd.
not exactly work but cleaning,unpacking,moving.
thurs and friday was packing too till late night.
used the acidic thingy,something like tinner, to clean those stains,that makes my hand so dry now.
i feel like shopping, i want to buy bagsss & sandalsss.
i miss feeling excited over meeting friends, going out for gathering.
i want to drive too.
haha, why at this time of the year, new people enter into my life again.
weird.dont bother to understand wad i'm saying. lols!

tmr is monday again.will be at the new office. i am so lonely sitting outside, facing the door.
16 more weeks.
yes almost everyone say wah still got so long, which is really pissing me off
cause i have been telling myself that wah very fast very fast. yea trying to console myself. haha.
but luckily for some colleagues, hmm maybe 4? that can at least make me laugh a bit.
hahaha anyway i got one day leave, gona make full use of that.
already have some plans, shall see. (:
till then!

dependsonfate @ 2009-10-24T23:01:00

2009-10-24T15:02:24Z

tired. very very tired.
:(

it's really tough

2009-10-20T13:57:22Z

i'm so tired of complaining about how sucky the company is already.
thanks to those who encouraged me. if this carries on, i doubt i can hang on.
so anyway stayed till near 11pm ytd, super shagged. someone pissed me off, seriously, stop being so fake.
stop sucking up people's ass. no wonder you are being outcast. look down on this type of people.
& i dun think i have OT pay or time off? haha wonderful!

i shant elaborate how sucky this company is. haha those who i told the whole story, u should know.
somehow i teared this morning, but yea i know i should hang on and not be a weakling.
but the working environment is so negative.
and i tell you what, another colleague is leaving. she told me her story, how badly she is treated.
really bad, inhuman environment. inhuman supervisor. ha! having thoughts of committing suicide is unavoidable.
but dun worry i wont, just having the thoughts, hahaha. can u imagine an intern work until commit suicide?
how horrible is that company. LOL
sigh. sad that she is leaving, one less person to talk to. but happy that she finally can leave this hell.
she teared abit when she talk to me, but i know i cant teared in front of her, i have to be strong.
within 2 months, 5 person left.
hahahaha. not retrenchment, all are resignation. cool isnt it?!

argh. hahaha
never mind, i'm looking forward to tmr, but not thurs fri and sat.
woooohoooooo tmr! :D
till then!

i miss school

2009-10-18T14:29:19Z

Happy birthday eugene!
celebrated his bday on fri plus a small gathering. ha!
ate at fish n co and some chitchatting.
afterwhich was drinking at some duno what place.
drank heineken. i was actually thinking how is it like to be drunk.
hahaha but i noob lar, they say drink that one wont drunk one. sian.
maybe shall try being drunk one day? ha!

was really not in the right mind on friday.
i duno why there is so many things in my head.
again tomorrow is monday, booooooo.
supervisor really plays a big part in making your work interesting ttm or sucks ttm.
so,mine is sucks ttm. LOL. but not forgetting some days after work i still have fun with friends.
and i want to go shopping, soon i hope.
the rest are starting school tmr, i hope i'm starting school tmr too, but i'm not.
i miss sitting 74, going to ngee ann.
i miss talking in lecture halls instead of listening.
i miss meeting up for lunch at makanplace/sim.
i miss going out to have fun after lesson. hahahas.
i miss looking around observing ppl. HAHA.
this all cant be done in work.
so people, treasure ur time in school! no doubt school is still better than work! at least, for me.:D

okay, 17 weeks left. trying hard to survive, i know i can do it.
one more week at redhill and off i move to ubi for 4 months.
till then! :)

wanna pause it, but i can't make it stay

2009-10-17T06:20:58Z

so anyway i gave night safari a miss ytd for another gathering.
i felt so bad. sorry lingli.:(
i know i can never have the best of both worlds. ha.
it's really a difficult decision. argh. i hope you are not angry.
i treat u koi okay? and i still owe u money, faster meet again and i can return you.

hottie, i miss you. i want to tell you lots of things. :(
sigh. i think i'm pms-ing. hahaha.
super moody. even though i have a tad bit lesser work to do, but the stress she gave me is really zzz.
okay i shall go out and relax first. be back later! :D

'Cause this pain i feel it won't go away

2009-10-15T15:17:19Z

just 2 ba.
powerhouse ladies night.
yea my first time, noob i know. lols
but well i enjoyed myself last night despite some you know you know.
thanks to those who sincerely protect us. :)
not my type of place, but once in a while is fine when u are feeling stress ttm like me.
and as expected, i cant wake up for work today and so mc.
my gastric is quite uncomfortable now. argh sucks.
and i tink my fringe sucks too, i still think sideway fringe is better. ha!
still cant get over that my hair is shortened by 3inches.
dinner and night safari tomorrow!
a sad yet fun week. how contradicting.
and amazingly, i lost count of how many weeks left.
okay going to be left with 17weeks. all the best to me, n not forgetting my dear clover.
k till then, xoxo! :D

you make me hate working life so much

2009-10-12T14:32:37Z

i dont understand if a person can be nice, why he/she choose not to?
is it necessary to be harsh on a person for him/her to learn his/her mistakes?
i doubt so.
a supervisor that can make his/her employees cry shld really do some reflections
not because the employees felt sorry for their mistakes.
is they felt so upset that they have such supervisor.
sigh
she makes my friend cry today
so tell me, do you think that i will feel happy working there?

H.A.T.E.U

2009-10-11T15:24:11Z

Ooh and this was a love phenomenon no one I know could explain
And I wish I could press reset and feel that feeling again
I sit and press rewind
and watch us every night
Want to pause it but I cant make it stay